Sudden sense of loss? Feels so bullshit. Exams are finally over. Isn't that what I've always been wanting? Everyday is so free now, what can I do? Swim, read reader's digest, going for movies, shopping spree, gym. Totally lost. No more books, stoning into computer. It's just another cycle of a typical student who doesn't study ahead of time.
Guess november holiday is really going to be busy, with course achieve for 2 weeks, home nurse course, hospital attachment for 1 week, trip to vietnam for 5 days or so. Really wonder why I always plan so many things when I'm studying for exams and regret after that cuz I want to go out and play! But well, I also know that all of those above will fill my nov holiday with once a life time experience. Live to learn.
Just like how I've never regretted taking triple sci, learning malay, joining FAC, going for NCOC, CA, camps, OBS, etc etc. The journey through all these was really tough and I don't doubt if you hear me whining about them. But it's always after that which I'm able to see how I've grown from it.
Sometimes new things attract your attention when you hear and look at it. When you buy them, hard earn money, they become worthless to you and you forget all about it. It's left aside, unused, wasted. That's why, I never give up on things.
I remember 2 years ago when someone, playing basketball with me, trying hard to know me, cuz I was the problematic one, asked me: Will you ever quit?
Yes, I was problematic, I rebelled. But I said " Whatever I've decided to take up, I won't give up.
I wonder what I will be in future. Will I be pretty? Will I be rich? What will my occupation be?
Oh well, on the other hand I also do not believe in getting an A for everything but just to enjoy the process. I wonder how far can this logic of mine bring me to.